More then enough

John 14:8 says: "Philip said, "Lord show us the Father, and that will be enough for us"
The song Healer by Kari Jobe says: "I believe your more than enough for me"

If I need provision-God is enough for me

If I need comfort- God is enough for me

If I need direction- God is enough for me.

If I'm lonely-God is enough for me

If I'm struggling- God is enough for me

If I am hurting- God is enough for me

Even When things are going good- God is enough for me.

In everything we go through, our everyday situations, God is enough for Us.

it was all yellow..

I realized that the person I've been missing no longer exists.

I don't know who that person in the picture is.

The memories, both good and bad have faded.

Seems like it was a whole different world.

So long, stranger.

:D

I am truly incredibly blessed.

The people that God has placed in my life are so amazing.

They have impacted me , challeged me, encouraged me,

come along side me, and pretty much anything else amazing friends do!

Wait, their not just friends they are Family.

Then there is my Jesus!

He has already continued to work in me amazingly, and He's just continuing to blow my mind!

I know that I am exactly where I am supposed to be at this point in my life, and I am so excited about what this year holds.

"I want to be like a tree, planted by the stream of living water"

I really am GOOD!

Everyday people ask me how I am doing, and I usually respond with a firm, and smile filled "Good!". But sometimes I get the feeling that not everyone believes thats how I am really feeling. I get this vibe that they think I should be a mess, that I should still be hurting, and that because I don't portray that I must be in some kind of denial. I guess I can see where they are coming from if you look at it through the natural eye. Or maybe they can relate to having a similar situation go on in their lives and they themselves still haven't dealt with it, even after many months. But everyones different, we deal with situations and emotions differently.

All I can say is that God did a MAJOR work in my heart this summer, because I let Him. I gave Him free reign, to remove, uproot, plant, prune, break, make and mold everything within my heart, soul, mind and my very being. It sucked sometimes, it hurt, it made me uncomfortable, it stretched me, and it humbled me. But Through it God made me trust him, surrender, and learn to find myself, my everything in Him. One of the biggest things He did in me was give me the grace to Forgive, over and over. Somedays this was the last thing I wanted to do, but when you hold bitterness and unforgiveness against people, it hinders yourself, not the other people.

From the beginning I decided that I wouldn't hold onto any grudges, hurts or bitterness, all of that I learned to surrender.

One of the big lessons that I learned this summer was that God will move powerfully within us and through us if we allow Him; trusting and knowing that He only has good in store for us. Ultimately that is why I can stand before you and tell you that "I am Good", and the reason I can talk about my summer and not have pain and hurts fill my heart.

I'm not saying that I've completed this process, cause I know I still have lots to learn. Im just saying that God is amazing, He is all powerful, and His ways aren't our ways, and for that I am incredibly thankful.

Fall

Well September is already 6 days upon me, and within those six days a lot has gone on.

It's been a week of going through a whole new process. Old memories, Old hurts, Old situations that I'd rather not recall, continued to fill my mind. I think that when something so huge ends in your life God likes to deal with every part of it, thus bringing up memories, allowing me to continue to forgive and let go. Don't get me wrong, I am definetly not hanging on, which is probably why this process has gone pretty smooth and rather fast.

I have received so much encouragement from the people here. I can't even count the amount of times I have been told that 1. I look so different 2. I have more joy then last year 3.I seem so free. It's not my best friends sayin these things either, it's people who I didn't get a chance to know till this past week. These words have confirmed so much in me, and encouraged me immensly.

I've also struggled this week with why I am here, and what am I goin to do with what I am learning here. Ive noticed that that becomes a lot more important when a large amount of money is involved. Money. I have zero dollars for next semester.

Finances is something I have never had to worry about till now. But even now I know that God has brought me here for a reason, and it's not to see me drop out because of something so stupid as money.

This summer has been about Trusting God, and this school year is goin to continue that theme. It's goin to be tough, trying, testing, but it's going to increase my faith and dependence on the 1 true God. Therefore I look forward, not with dread, but eager expectation of what God is going to do.

This year at is going to be amazing, and thats probably an understatement.

God, redeem me.

This home is full of painful dead memories.

God please take every one and replace it with something new.

looking back...

When I look back on this summer, I am amazed and I don't know if I can even begin to put it all into words. This summer has been unreal. Where do I even begin?

I'll try starting here.

This summer has been emotionally painful.

I've had to learn to let go and allow God to have His way in me, which isn't always a fun process.

I also had to let go of "what was". I had this stupid hope that some friendships might possibly remain the same, but after much hurt I had to let go of that too.

I have been and probably still am very misunderstood. My flesh has fought hard against Gods spirit in me, but in the end God wins, and I know that He will justify me. I dont need to defend myself, God knows, and well ive also learned the hard way that in the end only His opinion matters. He knows everything, and therefore He is the only one that has the right to judge me.

This summer has brought me incredible healing.

I never knew how hurt I was until Gods light shone upon my heart and spirit, especially in areas that I hadn't necessarily surrendered to Him. It's so amazing when God shows us how much we need Him, then so quickly fills us, and offers us His love and grace. God has revealed to me over and over in the last 4 months about the beauty of Grace. man its amazing!

God also brought me closure to certain areas in my life, not in ways I expected, but His closure allows healing to begin and thats been quite the process. God has also given me amazing friends who have encouraged me and prayed for me. There are so many ways I have recieved healing, probably one of the best ways it's come is just in my quiet times alone with God. :)

This Summer has built my faith.

There was a lot of things I feared heading into this summer, and surprisingly enough, not one of them even came to fruition. God has come through for me so incredibly! I got a job right when I got home, God opened doors for me to play guitar with incredible people, and when I spent time with Him, he never failed to reveal Himself to me. I also got asked to be a Lifegroup leader at school this year, and that gave me that boost of hope I needed to believe in myself and know that with Gods help I can do it.

Theres so many other things, I could go on forever! But this is getting long, and Im not one to usually write or read long blogs! haha.

Bottom line, This summer has been the best summer of my entire life. At times it has sucked and been hard, but now as I look back I can see the fingerprint of God on it all. I am so thankful that God loved me and continues to love me too much to leave me the way I am, and for that I owe Him my life.