My 4th year motto...

 "As I let go,
 I’m not losing anyone, 

I’m just defining a

 new normal."

There's a fire startin' in my heart....

Lately I've been thinking a lot about beauty and have been questioning the reasons behind socially acceptable ideas of it.  When you turn on the TV you are bombarded by commercials boasting the latest beauty creams, treatments, hair, clothing, and weight loss programs.

The media is constantly telling us that we aren't good enough.

Where in the bible does it say that wrinkles aren't beautiful? 

Who decided that a size 2 waist is more attractive than a size 10?  

Who decided that even though God created us white, we should spend tons of money on skin tanning treatments, or subject ourselves to dangerous amounts of sun for the purpose of being darker?

Who decided that rock hard abs are to be desired over love handles?

Who decided that we should participate in fads and that if we don't we're somehow lesser?

Who decided that the way God made us isn't good enough, and therefore needs to be helped out?

Our bodies are temples and we are required to treat them as such, but i'm to the point where I'm asking these questions and figuring out what is really important in Gods eyes. 

I want to be a part of a generation that grasps the importance of inner beauty and spends more time on that than on keeping up with society's constant demands for perfection.  I want to see the people of my generation set an example to the generations behind us of what it looks like to walk out beauty in a way that brings God glory.  I think it's important to question what society feeds us, because the majority of it is so far off from what God's point of view is.  Bottom line: Be You

Nothing compares to this love, burning in my heart...

Today was a day of victory! I have been training for this marathon for about 5 weeks now, and today I finally cracked 5km! It seemed like I had hit a 4k plateau and today I wasn't giving up until I pushed past it.  When I looked down at my IPhone training app and read 5.12km I threw my hands up in the air and yelled "YES!".  I was again doubting whether I was really cut out for this marathon, and today God used this little victory to reassure me, that I can do all things in His strength. 


It's hard to believe that it's August already and that this summer is flying by so fast. Recently, I've really enjoyed reading the Word. (of course I always enjoy it, it's just been extra revelatory as of late).  I'm at the age where there is so much pressure from so many people to have a plan, be in a relationship, have a certain amount of money, and to be independent and self sufficient. Well, I don't buy it and I don't think any of it is necessary at this point.. Reading the Word and spending time with God has been my hiding place, my distraction free zone, my place of perfect peace, my unlimited supply of strength, my reassurance, and more importantly my source of wholeness. 


It's in Christ that I find my purpose, my identity, and the very essence of my existence. Despite the pending decisions that need to be made, and the countless unknowns, I have never felt more whole than I do at this moment.  There is nothing in this world that can satisfy you and I, like Jesus does. 

"I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand"

Isaiah 41:10

Burn out Bright

Today has been one of those rare days when discouragement threatens to overtake me,  leaving me completely unmotivated and ready to call it quits. I'm a little over 2 weeks into my marathon training and it's still a struggle for me to make it to 4k without being completely exhausted, I can't imagine ever making it to 21k alive.  I feel so far behind everyone else, and so far from ever achieving this great feat.

On another note, I've  been unbelievably restless lately.

 ......This is hard, and I have too much on my mind.

                                                .....but no matter what I'll never give up.

                                                            I promise.

a bit of what I do in BC....

May I never take it for granted...

Every once in a while as I am driving down the road I am suddenly struck with the realization that I live in beautiful British Columbia! Never in my small town dreams did I ever think I would be here, doing what I get to do. God you are good, and have blessed me beyond measure.

       Thank You......so much.

Empty is the canvas...

Yesterday I signed up to do a 21km marathon to raise money for women in Africa who have had their lips, eyes, noses and other body parts severed off because they have aids.  The money goes towards them receiving reconstructive surgery so they no longer have to be ostracized from their communities, along with that they will receive teaching on important life skills.  When I first got the invite I said "yeah right" and clicked No, little did I know that that would rock my world. 

Yesterday I began to think about how much I put myself into a box saying "This is what I am capable of, and this is what I am not capable of". This usually leads to me becoming frustrated because the things I want to do usually fall into the "incapable box".   I began to think "What if I just went for it? What if I jumped without looking down? What if I risked it all? What if I actually believed in myself? What if I believed even more in the power of Christ within me?". In that moment I decided I would pursue the things God has laid on my heart with everything that is within me, not caring what others will or won't think, just keeping my eyes focused on the eyes of the one beckoning me closer. 

I went for a jog later that night, trying to will myself into shape, and the whole time I couldn't stop thinking about the marathon I had turned down, and so began the wrestle.  After dismissing the thousand excuses of why I shouldn't do this, I jumped. I signed up, and today I had my first training session. I have already learn't so much, and what I want to emphasize with this blog tonight is that we should never let life pass us by. I am so used to sitting around waiting for life to happen, when there are crazy, amazing opportunities passing me by. The adventure and life I pray for doesn't always look the way I think it should, but God knows what is best and thats why it is important to listen to the small voice, the pounding of your heart, and the nudges of the Holy Spirit.

I don't want to be someone who sits back waiting for exciting, life changing opportunities to fall into my lap. I want to be someone who realizes that through Christ my capabilities are endless and I can achieve great feats that are far beyond my own strength and  so can you.

"God's new things do not happen within our control, nor is it within our control that we meet the power of God. The power of God always operates at the margins. It is when we run out of our capacity that we run into His. " Tom Marshall