Maybe all I know is in your arms, your eyes.

3 weeks ago I turned 22. As I look back on my life, I know that I never dreamt that I would be here. Here.... spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and physically. I've realized that the dreams and hopes I have for myself are incredibly small compared to the dreams and plans that God has for me. This journey called life is incredible. Most recently God's been trimming the un-needed, un-helpful and hindering branches in my heart. Theres so many things I have held tightly to because I feared they were the best I could possibly attain. I've been reading a leadership book that deals with the "dark side" of our lives and through it God has shown me how I've lived my life around my insecurities.  On innumerable occasions I have hoped that no one would notice how much I struggle to believe in myself and my giftings, or how I fear that they will, and because of that they will value me less.  I often struggle with feeling mediocre, especially in the area that I'm passionate about: music. I can't play anything exceptionally well, I can barely harmonize, it's hard for me to write songs, and I don't know much about the basic principles.

So what?


What about those statements makes me any less of an amazing person? What about those statements makes me any less of a daughter of the King? What about those statements makes me any less of a world changer? It doesn't change who I am, it just shows that I have room to grow. 


I don't care that I'm not as good at music as so-and so.
I don't care that I'll make mistakes, and not always know the seemingly simple answers.
I don't care that I might not meet so-and-sos standards.

I'm done living like I have to prove who I am. I'm done living like people's opinions & expectations matter. I'm done living my life based on insecurity and fear. I'm done thinking whats before me is as good as it gets.

Just because i'm 22 doesn't mean time is running out. I have so much life to live, so much road to travel, so many people to meet, and so much room to grow into the person, musician, daughter, friend, and leader that God has called me to be.

It's never to late to be free.