Is it over now? hey, is it over now?

Have you ever had one of those weeks where you feel as though everything is against you and you seem to fail at everything and begin to doubt your giftings? Yeah, thats been my week.

I hate feeling inadequate especially as a musician, it's one of the most frustrating things especially here where I'm surrounded by such amazing musicians.

Seems as though there's so much going on in my life, and none of it is getting my full effort and attention, Im so spread out. Thus leaving me feeling as though I am slacking on homework but more importantly my relationships with everyone here.

I've considered eliminating sleep out of my life seeing as that seems to take up a lot of my time where I could be doing something way more productive. hah.

I have approximately 14 more assignments/exams/other left until the craziness ends.

3 more weeks. then a much needed break.

then It starts all over again.

and well next semester has the potential to be even crazier.

Lord give me the strength to finish off the semester in a way that brings you Honor and Glory.

Amen.

Begin. End. Begin. End. -pause-.

This past weekend 4 of my friends and I travelled 4.5 hours to attend 2 nights of worship with Kim Walker, something I have always dreamt of.

This passionate woman of God has inspired me in so many ways. She is so humble and you can tell from the first note that she wants no glory for herself, its all about Jesus. So full of the Spirit, so In love with Jesus.

God has been speaking to me over and over about Him being Everything.

There is such a battle going on inside of me, between what my flesh wants and what my spirit knows is right.

Sacrifice, is not something I have always been good at, something I guess God wants me to work on. I know that the reward will be worth it, it's just the first steps that are unbearably hard.

But I know that as I walk into this new season of my life, it's something that is going to be incredibly beautiful, and will bear much fruit within myself.

I don't know what it all looks like, but I trust the one who has called me, because He is faithful.

"I invite you King of Glory, come and have Your way"

My Everything

This past week in chapel the speaker was talking about priorities. Something I need to work on. My life is so busy, I have a lot going on with interning, lifegroup leading, school, friends etc etc. Why is it that when life gets busy the most important thing in my life gets put last on the 'to do' list? Jesus, forgive me for not putting you in your rightful place in my life. You must be first, and I must be last. More of you and Less of me (Jn 3:30) Lord be My Everything.

This is a song that I wrote for Songwriting Class, definetly describes where my heart is at right now. It's called My Everything

Be the air I breathe,

be the song I sing,

be the Wind under my wings,

Be the River of Hope,

that Floods my Heart

Jesus, Be My Everything

I know who you are

I know you're trustworthy

I know you are faithful

Jesus Be my Everything

Be the voice I hear

Be the truth I speak

Be the one who wipes my tears

Be the fountain of Joy

That flows through my soul

Jesus be My Everything

Be My everything

Be My everything

Be My everything

Jesus, Jesus

Jesus, Be My Everything

Ezekiel 47:12
"Fruit trees of all kinds will grow on both banks of the river. Their leaves will not wither, nor will their fruit fail. Every month they will bear, because the water from the sanctuary flows to them. Their Fruit will serve for food, and their leaves for healing."

Lord keep me planted on the banks of the river
that flows from Your heavenly sanctuary.