You were born for such a time as this..

Where to begin! Life is changing fast and it's taking my heart and head so much longer to catch up and begin to really comprehend all that is going on.  My major theme for this year is Risk: expect the unexpected and therefore I shouldn't be surprised that we're only 22 days into 2012 and yet every single moment of it has been unexpected. I am so incredibly blessed to be on the path that God has me on - it's scary, stretching, hard, riveting, exciting and ultimately so worth it.
Recently I've been realizing that it is going to require a ton of faith for me to stay out here in BC. It would be easier for me to go home and live with my parents - it would be easier for me to go to another school and not have to worry about building roots or making long term plans.

But i've never been called to easy, nor do I want to take the easy way out. 

I am staying in BC and though I don't know how it will all work out, I can see that the future is extremely bright and that God's hand is heavy upon it.
I am stepping out in faith, completely unaware of where I am headed, but fully understanding that God's hand is guiding me every inch of the journey. lets.do.this!
What is God asking you to do that you are too scared to do or that you don't feel like you have enough faith for?  Step out and see where he takes you  - i guarantee, you won't regret it.

"It's gonna be wild, it's gonna be great, it's gonna be full of Me" -Jesus.

you still get my heart racing...

I can't believe how fast this year is already flying by! The past 8 days have contained more love, thinking, heartache, family, and joy than some people experience in a lifetime.  I spent the past 3 weeks in Manitoba with my family and it was such an amazing time. It wasn't anything like we expected it to be and if we could we would all go back and change the circumstances -but God knows whats best and we don't. It's unfortunate that it takes death to bring people together, but that seems to be the way that life goes.

Death is tough no matter how close or far you are from the person.
Death puts life into perspective faster than anything else.
Death separates what's important from whats not important
Death makes you think about purpose, eternity and how fragile life is.

As I sat at the funeral for my aunt I couldn't help but think about heaven, healing and my faith.  How does someone recover from the loss of their spouse? How can they possibly go on in any state of normalcy? Without grace, patience, perseverance, love and time they can't.  I am so thankful that God is so patient with his children and that no matter what circumstances come their way he is there to hold, guide, comfort, and strengthen. He is so so good to us, no matter what.

Needless to say this year is going to be nothing like I expect it to be - it already hasn't been.  I welcome this with open arms trusting that God indeed does know what is best for his children.  I haven't set any resolutions because honestly they seem pretty meaningless and I'm tired of trying, in my own strength, to become someone I think I should be.  Instead I have chosen to simply "seek first the kingdom.." - everything else will fall into place.

Heres to 2012 - the best is yet to be.