One thing.

Exodus 33:12-23 amazes me.
Lets read it:

" 12 Moses said to the LORD, "You have been telling me, 'Lead these people,' but you have not let me know whom you will send with me. You have said, 'I know you by name and you have found favor with me.' 13 If you are pleased with me, teach me your ways so I may know you and continue to find favor with you. Remember that this nation is your people." 14 The LORD replied, "My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest." 15 Then Moses said to him, "If your Presence does not go with us, do not send us up from here. 16 How will anyone know that you are pleased with me and with your people unless you go with us? What else will distinguish me and your people from all the other people on the face of the earth?" 17 And the LORD said to Moses, "I will do the very thing you have asked, because I am pleased with you and I know you by name."

18 Then Moses said, "Now show me your glory."

19 And the LORD said, "I will cause all my goodness to pass in front of you, and I will proclaim my name, the LORD, in your presence. I will have mercy on whom I will have mercy, and I will have compassion on whom I will have compassion. 20 But," he said, "you cannot see my face, for no one may see me and live."
21 Then the LORD said, "There is a place near me where you may stand on a rock. 22 When my glory passes by, I will put you in a cleft in the rock and cover you with my hand until I have passed by. 23 Then I will remove my hand and you will see my back; but my face must not be seen."

Verses 12-17 really speak to me as I am again being put into a position of leadership at school. Gods been challenging me to not do it half hearted and just get by, but to step up, step out and take my position seriously. I am really excited for what this school year holds, vision is already being cast and will soon be put into motion. "If your presence isn't with us do not send us up from here" One thing I desire more than anything, God, is to see your glory as Moses did, and to walk in your presence as Jesus did.

Lets be serious.

I've been reading a book lately by Myles Munroe called "Single, Married, Separated & Life after Divorce. It's really given me a new perspective on the true meaning of being "single" (which is the state of being a unique, whole person, and has nothing to do with your relationship status) and it's taught me why relationships should be taken seriously. Not that I didn't know that already, but it's good to have reminders.
Heres an excerpt from Chapter 11.

"You men who are not yet married, please take heed to this revelation. If you are unmarried, be quick to hear and slow to speak. Do not lead women on and play games with their emotions. Make up your mind not to make a move unless you are ready to die for the commitment. In other words, don't join the army until you are prepared to die and never defect (forsake). Before you start chasing, make sure she is someone you can chase until death do you part. Today, a lot of women are out there advertising, but you men must decide "Is she chaseable to the grave"?
Check out everything. Most of all, ask God. Seek His Will."

And women, you do the same.

For both sexes, it is important to know that chasing someone who looks nice is apt to be decieving. What looks nice now may not in ten years, or may not when you see her without makeup or him with a full beard and unwashed after a hard days work. Love someone because of their attitude, character, inner spirit being--all the things that will not change."

I feel like people don't take relationships seriously these days. I live in a town full of teens who go from guy to guy and have children with more than one of them, yet they aren't even together anymore.
But I don't just see the abuse of relationships in the secular world...I see it at Bible school too. Guys chase girls without intending to marry them, and girls lead guys on because they like the attention. We flirt like it makes no difference in the other persons life. But i'm sick of it!
Within the past couple months I've been starting to think of relationships and guy/girl interaction with a new perspective. I've had my head and heart messed with more than Id like to admit and I don't want that to happen anymore, not to me, not to anyone.
Lets start to respect ourselves and the people around us. Don't flirt with someone unless you intend to pursue them, and don't pursue them unless you intend to marry them. 'Cause if you don't intend to marry that girl or guy then you are messing with someone elses husband or wife.
and thats not cool.

Heb 10:24 "Let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds"
Romans 12:10 "Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves"

Thinking.Searching.Revealing.Healing

"If we feel the need for vindication, then we still need healing."

This is something I've been thinking about this past week. Vindication means:"To clear of accusation, blame, suspicion, or doubt with supporting arguments or proof" I've been accused of being a few things in the past, things that were lies. I want to deny it, but lets be honest, I want vindication, I want those people to know who I really am, and that I'm not who they said I am. But in reality I don't need that, God knows I can go on living in freedom and victory without it. I don't need anyone to tell me who I am, or to affirm me because God already has and that needs to be enough for me.

Lord, teach me to die to myself and to my sinful desires.

Teach me how to let You be enough for me.

amen.

The best is yet to be.

What does it take to be at a place of true peace, trust and contentment.

I want to be independent. I dont want to have to rely on.***wait!..One thing I love about blogging is that when I begin to write out my thoughts God, without fail, speaks to me.*** Lets look back at the statement where I declared my want of independence...it's filled with "I". I don't want this, I don't want that. This distress I feel inside is a matter of lost focus, I've been thinking about myself and my own comfort for too long and have quickly forgotten the promises of God over my life.

My favorite verse is Phil 4:19

"And my God will supply all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus"

"Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess for he who promised is faithful" -Heb 10:23

"The one who calls you is faithful and He will do it" - 1 Thess 5:24.

That last verse has a whole new meaning to me right now. God has called me to attend PLBC for 4 years, in a province that isnt exactly a cheap place to live. My wise friend always says "God's vision, Gods provision". And I've always said "God's will, Gods bill". God didnt call me there to leave me hanging dry. He never calls us to something that He doesnt intend to provide for. The problem comes when we think that we have a choice in deciding who the provision can and cannot come from. Father forgive me, because I'm so guilty of this,

When kids want candy they take it from whoever will give it to them, they dont pick and choose.

Lord, restore my child like faith.

The picture above is a perfect example of Jesus, He stands on the tallest mountain, with me on his shoulders and says "Heres the world my beloved child. Heres what I have planned for you. Now run, go and embrace everything I have called you too. Take risks, jump far, and leap high. Don't stop to worry about anything, because I'm going before you and coming up behind you. (Isaiah 52:12). I've got you covered."

In life God isn't concerned with our comfort, but rather our character. God allows situations and tests to cross our path so that we can be made more into his image. When we realize that and know that it infact is truth, it makes the struggles we face seem smaller.

I would like to thank every single person who has ever sown into my life financially, God has used you to provide for the things He is calling me to. Without your support, I wouldn't be where I am today. You have blessed me beyond measure, and I pray that God blesses you back 100 fold. :)

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The excitement and anticipation I'm feeling for fall is out of control! I need to chill out! Someone needs to tranquilize me because there is still many weeks before I go back, and I really need to just focus on the mission that God has for me here, for this time in my life.
Lord, teach me balance!