looking back...

When I look back on this summer, I am amazed and I don't know if I can even begin to put it all into words. This summer has been unreal. Where do I even begin?

I'll try starting here.

This summer has been emotionally painful.

I've had to learn to let go and allow God to have His way in me, which isn't always a fun process.

I also had to let go of "what was". I had this stupid hope that some friendships might possibly remain the same, but after much hurt I had to let go of that too.

I have been and probably still am very misunderstood. My flesh has fought hard against Gods spirit in me, but in the end God wins, and I know that He will justify me. I dont need to defend myself, God knows, and well ive also learned the hard way that in the end only His opinion matters. He knows everything, and therefore He is the only one that has the right to judge me.

This summer has brought me incredible healing.

I never knew how hurt I was until Gods light shone upon my heart and spirit, especially in areas that I hadn't necessarily surrendered to Him. It's so amazing when God shows us how much we need Him, then so quickly fills us, and offers us His love and grace. God has revealed to me over and over in the last 4 months about the beauty of Grace. man its amazing!

God also brought me closure to certain areas in my life, not in ways I expected, but His closure allows healing to begin and thats been quite the process. God has also given me amazing friends who have encouraged me and prayed for me. There are so many ways I have recieved healing, probably one of the best ways it's come is just in my quiet times alone with God. :)

This Summer has built my faith.

There was a lot of things I feared heading into this summer, and surprisingly enough, not one of them even came to fruition. God has come through for me so incredibly! I got a job right when I got home, God opened doors for me to play guitar with incredible people, and when I spent time with Him, he never failed to reveal Himself to me. I also got asked to be a Lifegroup leader at school this year, and that gave me that boost of hope I needed to believe in myself and know that with Gods help I can do it.

Theres so many other things, I could go on forever! But this is getting long, and Im not one to usually write or read long blogs! haha.

Bottom line, This summer has been the best summer of my entire life. At times it has sucked and been hard, but now as I look back I can see the fingerprint of God on it all. I am so thankful that God loved me and continues to love me too much to leave me the way I am, and for that I owe Him my life.